I've decided its time to lose 20 pounds.

Im tired of being fat and hiding my fat.

I will be thin. I will be stunning.

I may not be very tall, but when I am thin I will stand out more.

I want every eye to be staring at me.

I don't want to feel intimidated by every model in Marciano.

Now that I've started the famous L.A habit, I'll be able to go to Lindsay Lohan's get togethers.

This habit should help me a lot to reach my goal.

I will be thin.

I will be a model.

And I will be the

most beauitful

girl

in L.A.

So help me I promise, I will do anything and everything in my power to reach to the top.

Its been a long time.

Im Back.

Currently Listening Swordfish By Paul Oakenfold Touch me see related

Coke, Cigs, Pills, Speed and Starvation

I've been thinking all day what sacrifices I would do to become a model.

Doing Drugs, is something im very against, but the thought of being able to meet and hang out with Lindsay Lohan, makes it seem all worth while. Today I was doing my own thing as usualy, day dreaming in my room, for when I can finally live the life or privelage and glamour. The one I've been yearning for my whole life. I was getting ready as usual, doing poses in the mirror, and day dreaming of the day I could be a celebrity model.

"Omg Paris! You called Marc Jacobs himself! Omg, Im having lunch with him tomorrow to discuss busieness! I love you so much!"

Then ofcourse my mother has to walk in and announce that my make-up looked hideous. I tried to ignore her and asked her if we could have lunch in Beverly Hills, since she knows I might be going to Canada this week. Ofcourse she yells at me and screams she doesn't want to drive there in traffic and what a spoiled brat I am.

There goes the fantasy of glamour, independence, and freedom.

We argued the rest of the day, and we ended up making each other cry.

2 years, 6 months and 3 days till FREEDOM.

Absolute beauty

Sorry I've been gone so long. RECOVERED.

I'm on the right btw.

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

                                     VERY L.A <3